08.11.10
In the Midst of Disregard
I am sitting in the middle of a pool of people with issues…and, they have closed ranks around me. Housemates, mate, friends and all the peripheral in their lives are leaning into my space and I am being squeezed to figure out where and how love wants to play that I may retain my sanity, calm demeanor and focus. Now, my throat – the voice – has been hurting for four days.
I am such a horrible pill-taker, I have never finished a course of antibiotics in my life. Since the end of 2000, my method of working through dis-ease in my body has been to meditate, journal – and now forgive – it out. Coming to know the affect of frequencies of emotion on a life, I smile at a childhood memory of my mother. There were seven children in my family and her first response to someone’s complaint of illness was, “Oh, it’s just your ill will coming out.” Her wisdom has foundation in my purpose. We choose our parents for reasons.
In addition to meditative journaling, there is a part of my transmutation process of forgiving frequencies that is time-consuming, but highly, highly effective. As I forgive the frequencies, I will break it down further by requesting to know where the unhealthy frequencies are in a particular situation. The four areas I focus on are mind, body, soul and the grid of people coming through my life. Progressing through this complete process with persistence has resulted in a now very quick process of clearing out unhealthy frequencies almost in the moment they arrive.
As I have moved into new living arrangements, danced in the beginning of relationship and stood in the new information of other people’s lives, my throat has become more sore by the day. Two days ago, I began forgiving and eradicating all frequencies of unhealth associated with the pain. Everything has been in the grid of people coming in and through my day.
I am, literally, in the middle of the flank of bedrooms in the house. I am, in my relationships of growing physical close proximity, feeling the encroaching energies of issues making their way into my space and my hands are trying to push it all back. It’s all energy and it’s increase is causing discomfort and dis-ease in my physical beingness…which triggers anger…which invites more low frequencies…which grows in the play of anger, frustration and irritation. The cycle of dis-ease.
The transmutation process isn’t being very effective in this situation. I have tried to return all frequencies to their rightful owners. And, I slept all day yesterday with a short cleaning frenzy in the evening to bring greater order to the moving melee. My throat still hurts. I once again acquiesce. I choose love, happiness, kindness and equilibrium. What is the way through?
The throat, in intuitive medicine, is associated with the voice. In the past two weeks, there has been a sudden rise of people in my vicinity challenged with using their voice in direct communication in their lives. “The antithesis of self regard,” Archangel Michael has described it. There is much I am to learn here as I branch my work on Self in greater direction.
After further discovery of how the frequencies of self disregard in the grid of others affect my personal space and body, I have searched in my own world to determine where I am not using my voice. I had written a piece on the Energy of Love and could not post it. First, it was a computer issue, then it was my own issue of being too personal, then it was the blog itself that requested expansion. It is now posted. My sore throat has eased – somewhat.
I’m now in the habit of feeling very at peace and at ease, regardless of what is happening in the world around me. Being in discomfort is acutely obvious and I am ready to return to my now normalcy of ease within. What is the way through all this mess of discomfort to return to balance? The answer, it seems, is love. Love is back to speak.
There is never any reason to reach out and fix another through their issues. It just doesn’t work that way. Now that love is in the center of my world, it’s love that is taking its stand. In a human life, how does love function in fullness in every moment of every day? Is it possible, truly possible, that love’s presence can be allowed to be the dominant state of being as one functions throughout a day? I have yet to meet the human living in social variety that knows how to pull that off. So, exactly what is it love is trying to do here?
I am in the midst of a new social mix. My body has revolted with the suppression of voice that is palpable at so many levels of our now-joined lives. Love is the softening agent. Love heeds kindness and kindness creates calm.
Love has made its way into my world through a portal of purified truth and trust. Standing in front of a woman at the store, Elishia conversed with her as love presented itself in a new experience for me. I stood beside them in a moment of quiet as love softly exuded from me toward her. She was looking for a second mind to consider her curtain choice. Love was healing her wounded world. As the natural flow of conversation turned into speaking her deeper pain, love found her voice and set it free.
Love, we have work to do…
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