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Wholeness
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Ruth Evelyn |
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So much is misunderstood about wholeness in the walk of truth. It is no wonder we often find ourselves in pieces again and again…and yet again.
When I first considered wholeness in the context of the spiritual journey, I was rather defiant about it. I was more focused on its definition as not broken, damaged, or impaired. My life was in pieces and my trek toward wholeness was taken up by the warrior in me. My defensive and offensive stance had me dancing around the edges of inner truth as I stood my post in protection of me. It’s an exhausting way to live.
We think of wholeness as having the right fitting job, the happy relationship within the family unit, good friends and health. We consider wholeness in terms of a well-balanced life of personal and professional congruency with a generous sprinkle of play and entertainment. We even look within and consider our connection with our higher self as being our wholeness.
These misperceived directions toward wholeness are the path most of us walk in the pursuit of happiness. They are, all too often, the directions that send us smack dab in the middle of untruth and pieces of parts that don’t fit together. How does that happen? Why don’t the pieces of a life fit together to create whole happiness? Why is contentment so fleeting, even in an enlightened person?
It took many years to comprehend and live in wholeness. I did what most do. I focused on balancing my male and female me, tested the waters of desires to develop new skills for creative streams of income and meditated for hours in the search and development of peace and happiness. It was not until a rather violent night of sleepwork and its waking aftermath that I came to know and live wholeness in every moment. It was a cosmic slam of exponential proportions.
Wholeness has four components to its fullness: Self, Authentic Coding, Authentic Aspects, and Regard. Codes and aspects are individually unique. Self and regard are universal. Recognition, acknowledgement and commitment to them create a divine trinity within that automatically centers, balances and ensures the steps you step are on your path and direction of why you are here.
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Self
Self, humanly defined, is a person or thing referred to with respect to complete individuality, a person's nature, character, the uniting principle as a soul underlying all subjective experience. Defined in the Language of Light, Self is the Mind in action (see Sedona Journal Aug 2010). When the individuated mind intends itself into physical form, the movement of that intention is the self.
Your human self in connection with your soul self is prerequisite for the actioning of your greater dreams, desires and goals. We have spent lifetimes gathering information and working blindly to reconnect with our higher selves. With our current planetary energies, rise in collective consciousness, pulsating crystalline grid, vortex activations and more, we are able to connect with self through the soul layers and into the universal and cosmic layers like never before.
Believe and know your self within. You are a magnificent creation worthy of the reverence we mistakenly grant to the perceptions we have of our soul families in the dimensional layers. They are our brothers and sisters in this game of humanness. Their view may be broader in certain respects. They do not know what you know and they do not have the full view and scope you have for your life and experience when you are fully self-connected.
Know the sacredness of you. Be in sacred reverence of self. Sacredness is the portal through which your personal plan of life arrives as it slides through the layers of self into your human consciousness for the purpose of physical fruition.
Authentic Code
Every human on the planet carries a base coding of love and truth. These are the two frequencies we are always in search of. They are the two frequencies most elusive to us. Beyond that, we each have frequencies that are our own mix of authenticity. It’s like our own personal barcode.
When the soul enters the human embryo for the first time, its initial visit is a reconnaissance mission. Emerging from the soul layers, the descended self gathers DNA information of genetic history and general make-up. It returns this information to the soul layer, matching the genetic information with the soul intention. The matched frequencies of soul and human become the frequency coding unique to the individual for personality and purpose. It is the human Authentic Code
Your authentic code is the set of frequencies your individuated self feels most at home with. When these frequencies, any one of them, are in full expression, you feel at ease with life. You are in expression of those frequencies most closely connected with your soul’s light. You feel you are yourself.
Authentic codes are individually unique. We are not taught to know what these are, yet they become what we look for in others. When someone tells you what you want in a relationship, they are only telling you what they want. Your own mind, body and soul are, in truth, seeking these unique and personal traits in others because they are a comfort zone for you. No one else knows what is deeply in you except you. When you finally discover them in yourself and activate them to expression, you stop needing the fulfillment from a source outside of you. It is through the fulfilled expression of you that you then attract fulfilled expression in others. This is the foundation of stable relationships.
To know your personal authentic code, sit quietly in meditation with the intention of knowing what those frequencies are. Focus on the energetic region of the enteric mind: navel to spine, hip to hip, sternum to pelvic floor. If you are practiced and quiet enough, you will notice each frequency as they rise to identify themselves to you.
When frequencies come forward for identification, they will come in sensations of feeling or as imagery. Frequencies communicating themselves to you are doing so in response to your intention, willingness to receive and the sacredness through which you honor the process. Creating the space of sacredness is important. It is, after all, a gift you are giving yourself in the realm of great regard for knowing who you are.
Authentic Aspects
Every human has twelve aspects unique to their individuated self. These authentic aspects speak to your intention of being. Authentic Coding lends to the thread of personality traits. Authentic Aspects are your deeper areas of interest. When lived, these become your careers and your contribution of purpose to humanity.
To give you an example, four of my own aspects are writer, artist, divine feminine, reveal what is hidden. I share these for you to know that when you are in receivership of the revelation of your aspects, it’s important to be open to even the oddest descriptions that come forward. These are tied to your personal plan and agreements of Self and are the roots of your natural abilities, talents and desires.
Authentic aspects are expressed individually and in combination with one another. For example, an aspect of mine is entertainer. Before I was living a centered life, I desired to be a platform speaker and followed through with the goal with minimal attempt and result. As a child, I sat in my room writing never-to-be-seen scripts on notebook paper. Today, I write screenplays and fiction books. Writing for entertainment is, in actuality, an expression of six of my authentic aspects. Writing for the Journal and in blog format is an expression of eight of my aspects.
These are examples. Your personal aspects are authentically yours. There are twelve. They may seem incongruent from one another when you first discover them. It will not be long before you recognize just how perfectly in sync they are with one another, with you, and often, your childhood likes, dreams and activities.
Writing your aspects within a circle on paper gives you the visual of your wholeness. When a friend opened to receive her authentic aspects, she prepared twelve pie-shape papers and decorated them to her liking. Creating sacred space, she placed the twelve around her and wrote on each as her aspects revealed themselves to her. When her process was complete, she placed the twelve pie-shapes in a circle, put them on poster board and hung them on her wall. The power of her aspects not only have come alive in her body and knowingness, but they now emanate throughout her meditation room and home.
Authentic aspects will, like authentic coding, reveal themselves to you in your sacred quiet and willingness to receive through allowing. Placing them visually in circular pie form gives you tangibility for seeing and knowing your aspects as a whole unit while you build them into experience. Adding the words of your authentic coding to the visual mix is the creation of a vision board of authentic purpose and focus.
Do not get hung up on the ‘correctness’ of the process, except to be in the sacred space of receptivity and allowing. Frequency communication is subtle. They come to you. Be and you will know more.
Dreams, goals and desires in your life emerge from the energies in your authentic aspects. While I once had a goal to speak professionally, it was a goal desired when I was not knowing and living in wholeness of my true self. The energies were sharp and not entirely comfortable. I could have pursued it, persevering through one fear after another. Living in wholeness, however, developing the expressions of your aspects is done in a manner of natural flow that works with synchronistic success rather than fighting your own self as you push and pull you through life.
Regard of Self as Whole
Regard, by definition, is to have or show respect, think highly of, take into account, consider, pay attention to, and esteem. Its synonyms are respect, honor, revere, value, notice, note, see, remark and mark.
Whole is defined as containing all the elements properly belonging, complete, intact, pertaining to all aspects, all things included or considered, altogether and, of course, not broken, damaged, or impaired. Its synonyms are undiminished, integral, complete, unimpaired, perfect.
When you are living in regard of self as whole, you live a different life. In the moment you passionately commit to regard your self as whole at the level of your authenticity, everything that is inconsistent with that regard will quickly surface. Walk through this phase with acute awareness. It is a gift of opportunity to see and change behavior patterns where you and others disregard you.
The inconsistencies that arise through this process are either the direct appearance of, or reflections of, old unhealthy patterns that were created in this lifetime or are present in you through your ancestral history – your DNA. Whatever they are or were, they are past. What is showing up now, no matter how subtle or harsh, is simply for matter of choice. Do you choose to regard self or not?
The universe of your body is not asking this question as a matter of defiance or judgment. It is only a question of readiness as you stand in the fork of every moment and consideration in your life. Are you ready to choose regard or are you continuing down the path of disregard?
You cannot think your way through these moments. Your greater choices of ending habitual patterns to bring forward your authentic self onto this planet are deeply felt. It is your authentic coding, your authentic aspects and your connection of self that have your answers and your steps. Regarding them in their wholeness is a matter of respect. Self respect.
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You have a plan for being human. Your plan exists. Exist within your plan. Our higher agreements are threaded through the frequencies of our authentic self. When we disregard self, we disregard our authenticity, our higher agreements, our plan, our reason for being. All of it is connected. It is your individuated oneness.
When Archangel Michael pulled back the veil showing me the disregard in my life, I found myself suddenly engaged in a brutal emotional struggle of choice. The first few days felt like being the gladiator in a den of hungry lions. I was, on an energetic level, fighting for my life as I accepted my own self disregard and began changing the self-pattern of allowing others to disregard me too.
It is unfortunate, but we are conditioned to disregard ourselves in our social environments. We are taught that considering self over others is selfish. In the energy of life, if you do not regard your self in wholeness, you cannot regard me or others in wholeness. Consider self at the level of authenticity to become healthy in your wholeness. This affects all of us.
The universe knows only wholeness. When you are inconsiderate of your pieces and parts or are in disregard of your wholeness and all components, you see and experience separateness. When you are in living regard of your wholeness, the universe conspires to support that wholeness. You are a like match to the universe and the universe responds by bringing you into the fold of whole and congruent parts. You become ‘family’ in a very macro and micro sense.
So, what does this look like in your human day? Today, as I write this, there are very few humans walking around regarding themselves as whole. Yet, when you, yourself, have made the commitment, you are well on your way to living in full regard of your own wholeness. Your life begins to shift as the now unsupported layers of unwholeness are overthrown by the attracting layers of wholeness in others. Life may seem to upset at first. Work with the flow of change. Soon, you will find yourself in the midst of wholeness congruent with the wholeness blending and braiding itself in you. Greater peace is the outcome.
In your committed regard of self as whole, a natural strength becomes manifest without effort. You relax into peace and trust. Your natural internal weave of authenticity supported by your own regard is the fabric of your strength within. Wholeness becomes your fortress of protection and you no longer war with the external world or stand in begging neediness.
The universe sees only wholeness. When you know your own wholeness, the universe will utilize your strength of being as the human bridge or light for others to know their own wholeness. You then become part of that which is lifting others up to be in their own magnificence. When you no longer resist this experience, grace becomes you. You become grace.
Wholeness is a state of grace. To get there, refuse and disclaim all disregard in your life, including your own disregard of self. It does not look pretty in the beginning. Facing our own self disregard is painful. It is just energy and a gift of opportunity to make a different choice.
Make the choice of regard for self as its whole unit. With every choice made to strengthen this wholeness, a thousand choices of disregard no longer exist.
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©2000-2010 Ruth Evelyn